Last of all, Thanks #29

Last but not least, I am thankful for:

Twilight

Shut up! Deal with it!

I realize that everyone will stop reading this post now, and go back to watching their reruns of "Everyone Loves Raymond." Fine with me - there is legitimate thanks to be expressed, and I believe in giving credit where credit it due.

Twilight woke me up from a difficult time in my life. I'd spent 8 months muddling through (what I didn't really want to acknowledge was) post-partum depression, and I'd lost much of my discernable identity. I was simply going through the motions of being a wife and mother, drifting mechanically through anytime leftover time in between.

Something about Twilight instantly connected with me, and "Kristen the person" began to re-emerge. I could write numerous essays on the topic, but it boils down to the passion of the story, and the magnifying glass it put to my life that showed my clear lack of passion, for anything at all. I had to finally look closely at the person in the mirror - a previously fiery girl with sass and spark, who'd simmered down to a cooled ember, dulled and gray. And I missed that - having passion, for a number of specific things, but mostly just for life and emotion in general.

Years later, Twilight has also brought me great friends and countless memories. It has greatly improved my marriage, as I look at Colby through my "Bella goggles" and let myself see everything about him that is amazing, that he is every bit my Edward. It has rekindled my long-lost love of reading, and I have since discovered many more wonderful stories and characters.


But the story of Edward and Bella will always be the story that lit me up, and brought me back. And I'll always be grateful, today & years from now. Thank you, Ms. Meyer!